On her own for the first time, Rowan Slone is no longer waiting for the future. She’s living in the present, and relishing every minute of it. She has a new boyfriend. She is helping best friend, Jess, raise her five-month-old son, Jacob. And she continues to work as Assistant Manager at the animal shelter-all while settling into her first semester of college. Rowan’s stars are aligned and she’s not looking back.
But all is not as golden as it seems. Being a young mother is too much for Jess to handle, leaving Rowan to shoulder much of the burden of raising Jacob. Trina becomes involved in a religious cult, causing Rowan to fear she may have lost her sister forever. And her mother has a new psychiatrist whose goal is to get Rowan into therapy, forcing her to deal with her mother, and the past, once and for all.
Adding to the rising turmoil, Rowan’s first love, Mike Anderson, returns, and wants to see her. She is surprised how much she wants to see him, too. But his sudden reappearance makes her wonder if there is room in her future for the boy with the pine-colored eyes or is it too little, too late?
As the winds begin to stir, threatening to send Rowan’s carefully-built life into a tailspin, she must search deep inside herself to discover what she truly wants. Will soul-searching help her achieve that elusive sense of peace and family she’s always craved or will the pain of the past prove too great?
I received this book for free in exchange for an honest review. This is book 3 in the Rowan Slone trilogy. I am glad I finished the series. Poor Rowan just has so much going on in her life. Just when things seem better, things get hectic again. This book follows book 2. Rowan and Jess live in a small apartment above Tanya (Rowan’s counselor from high school) with Jess’s baby Jacob. Tanya is their friend now (she was not that much older than them) but still gives them guidance on a pretty regular basis. Rowan is having to take care of Jacob, which is hard for her for several reasons other than the fact that taking care of babies is hard, I’m sure it reminds her of her little brother, and the night she took care of him when he died. Jess isn’t helping as much as she should, since it is HER BABY! Rowan is so supportive of Jess and Jess is being a terrible friend, and a pretty terrible mother as well. Rowan not only has to deal with Jess and Jacob, she is in college now, and dating Shane (who we met in book 2) and working at the animal shelter. It is a lot for anyone, especially for someone who has had so much trauma. In this book she is working on her relationship with Gran, and trying to maneuver the chaos that is her family. Trina is back and doing crazy shit again. She has taken up with a weird religious cult, and goes to Rowan’s college and preaches. I guess I don’t really think about all the trauma that happened to Trina also, but the way she handles everything just really pisses me off. Jess ends up leaving to party while Rowan watches the baby, and kind of goes off after that. She ends up taking off, without even telling Rowan, and she leaves a note in his room. It is a good thing Rowan went in there while Jacob was crying instead of leaving to go to work!! I wanted to shake Jess! A lot of these books was so frustrating, because everything just keeps getting worse! I really liked Shane, so I felt a little bad for him that Rowan is still in love with Mike, but he handled it so well. That made me like him more though! Rowan and Mike do end up getting back together, but they are taking things slow, and dating like they couldn’t do at the beginning of their relationship. Rowan’s dad comes back, and it turns out he is dying. This is going to sound fucked up, but it really a blessing, (not because he was a terrible dad who punched Rowan, and made her feel awful her entire life) but because this was the only way Rowan was going to get closure. If he wasn’t dying, he probably wouldn’t have come back at all, and especially not apologized. I am glad Rowan got to spend a little time with him before the end.