Before my older sister Francesca died, I worked at the bakery and wrote songs, but now I write lists. Lists like ten reasons why it’s my fault Francesca’s dead, or five reasons why I should try and win Howie back, or one reason why I need to stop lying to everyone, including myself.
Wish I Could Have Said Goodbye is an extraordinary novel about one family’s struggle to make sense of their world after losing a family member to addiction. Through sixteen-year-old Carmella’s eyes, we witness the courage and strength it takes to overcome the consequences of grief, guilt and co-dependency. With conviction and determination, Carmella shows us what can happen when we’re open to love, feel the pain of our loss, and find the courage to accept the truth of our lives.
Get your tissues ready people. This is a tearjerker. Sixteen year old, Carmella D’Agostino (Mello), makes lists. She makes lists about all kinds of things. She makes lists, because when she was younger she made lists with her sister all of the time. Then her sister dies, and Mello starts making lists by herself. Francesca dies of a drug overdose, which causes her mother to withdraw into religion, and pretty much have a breakdown. Her father is just angry, and instead of telling people about the overdose he wants to tell people it was a heart problem, or an accident, because it will hurt his business reputation. Poor Mello, her parents start treating her like she needs constant supervision, lest she turn out like Francesca. They don’t want to talk about Francesca, they don’t want to change traditions that were supposed to include Francesca, and they don’t want Mello to talk to Donny (Francesca’s boyfriend). Although Mello just wants to sit in her closet with her sister’s things and make lists, she must face the real world, which means school and work. She ends up meeting Howie, who is adorable and funny, and they start dating. There is a lot of drama in this book, not just with Francesca’s death. I liked the book, because it showed the emotional range of someone grieving such as; despair, anger, guilt over being happy, confusion, and hurt. This isn’t a feel good book, but it is heartfelt. This book deals with certain issues I like to read about (drug use, death, etc.) for some reason.
I received this e-book in exchange for an honest review.
Does this sound like something that you would be interested in reading? Do you think there can be rational behavior when faced with grief?